xiixvixii:

Before. March 5, 2013

This took a lot of guts to post. I’m going to look stunning by the time I leave for Vietnam. By the way, that’s not my boob its my bra. LOL
It’s a freaking heart.

Babe likes to bite my neck and I like it, but it always hurts like a bitch the day after. The struggle

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My friend downloaded Pokemon on his calculator.
Lovely.

Darling, you are so lovely. The way your wrinkles form around your eyes when you smile. The way you hold my hand as a form of reassurance. How your smell lingers on my clothes after a long embrace. How your eyes lighten up when you see me. The way you tell me good morning after a long night of laughing together. How you kiss my forehead when I’m not feeling well. The way you give me butterflies. You are lovely, darling. And you are mine.

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Things I like doing with you.

  • cuddling
  • tickle fights
  • holding your hand
  • being derpy
  • kissing
  • drinking 
  • you

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  • me: cross my heart.
  • ryan: you don't have a heart.
  • me: what.
  • ryan: cause i took it.
  • me: #done
favorite sweater ever.
Today would have been 3 years and 6 months.

Even though we’re still talking, I still miss you so much. I miss us. I’m scared that things will be different for us in a bad way. I’m scared to actually lose you forever. You promised that we’d work on our relationship after we’re done with high school, but the what ifs just kill me..

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Until you accept who you are, you will never be happy with what you have.

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I don’t see a future for myself anymore.

And that scares me.

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I give up.

If I’m such a burden to you then I’ll leave. 

I’ll go somewhere where you can never find me. 

Where no one can ever find me. 

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Today I didn’t bother to look for cars coming when I went to go buy food.

I don’t care anymore.

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Why be around people who don’t make you feel wanted?

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brb doing homework

and by doing homework i mean league

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